Empty Walls

Look at the kids... Then look at the adults. Did you ever notice that if you make a mistake the smaller children are more likely to forgive you than the adults? My teacher is mad at one of the kids in my class (still) for something childish that had happened two months ago. It's ridiculous. I think that as we grow, we become more close-minded. Well, most of the time--I gotta give credit to the ones who become more enlightened and forgiving as they grow. I just wanted to point that out, and I apologize for my lack of writing skill nowadays. But I mean, really, if you step on a kids toe they forgive you when you apologize, but there are adults that just don't forgive you for things simple as that. I have two specific people in mind as I write this. These people give me the illusions that all people are this way. But I gotta get that idea out of my head-- us humans aren't all that way. But the ones that are make a huge impact on your life. But hey... let's forgive 'em, eh? ;)

Aimee's Castle

I went to visit a friend yesterday and as I looked out the window of my car on the way, I spotted a huge building I could barely see. I thought it was a little eerie to be up there all by itself on some hill, so I asked my friend about it. She told me a little information about it-- enough to make me even more curious about the place. She said it was called "Aimee's Castle" or something. She started in on a story she'd found on the internet too, but I can't remember much that she said other than it was supposedly haunted. As a result, when I remembered it today I googled it and found a tiny bit more information, and it only peaks my interest. I hate that; I'm always the cat killed by curiosity. But it gets the best of me... Even though I'm basically just some kid with no life, I really want to go there now, to see it clearly with my own eyes and just... I don't know, but I'm really curious about the place. It was built in some city most people don't even know about, and I wonder what it's story is. I wonder why it was built, how people believe it to be haunted, what purpose it served, why it was built there, what was going on at the time, if anyone goes there, and ESPECIALLY if I'm allowed to go check it out. It's interesting, that castle... If you find any information on it, please let me know!

Truly a New Light

Just came back to tell you my game of Monkey in the Middle has OFFICIALLY ENDED!

Lucky me, lucky me, lucky me...

But what's NOT COOL is that now my friend has joined the game and suddenly feels really down... I don't know how to cheer her up. Heck, she won't even tell me what's up, for the most part. I don't get my age group.

But either way, I'm still really happy, until just now I realized...
I haven't really eaten for two days. Oops. I only noticed that 'cuz my stomach growled. So now I'm really hungry but it's 11:40pm so there's no way I'm going through the trouble of all that when my parents are asleep. I don't consider 11pm late, to be honest, but they do. Unless I'm exhausted I do. Which I kinda am. I just spent two days partying then meeting up some old friends at the ice rink. I'm happy. Again.

Well, I'll find something more interesting for you to read later, it's just...
I don't have much time to sit and contemplate random stuff like;;

How suckish our society is, views and perspectives, fantasy, daydreaming, random writing with strange meanings, anything of that sort...

I can't write squat unless I'm down or confused. But I'm happy.

So nothing comes to mind for me except: "I'm happy."

I promise, though, I'll find something. Real soon.

Monkey in the Middle

It's just a game, right?

I'm in the middle, torn between two, but...
This game of Monkey in the Middle doesn't have a ball I have to catch.
So what's really the objective?
I don't know.
I'm confused, things drastically changed in a matter of seconds.
I can't even tell you what's happening.
But I want to.
All I know is this is just a big game, a big game of Monkey in the Middle.
And I'm in the middle this time.
Good things and weird things are happening to me. And some downright bad things.
But mostly happy things.
Woah.

Chain Letters

I knew I had to post something because I had a lot go on today, so much that as soon as I finished some of my homework and got on my blog, my mind went blank. I guess I have two pointless things that are a big part of my life to talk about today, though.

Well, okay, ONE. I'm sure you don't want me to rant on how music runs my life, so...

I'll talk about what we all experience-- chain letters. Aren't they pointless? Annoying? Yup, they are. I especially hate the ones that say "You will meet the love of your life if you send this to five people..." I mean, what are you trying to accomplish? How many people get the letter?

But I will say that's not all true. Just 99.9% of the time. Anyway, I felt really down today about something, and then I went to check my email-- and I got some chain letter that really cheered me up. Even though it was a tad irritating to get pointless email, it still cheered me up. so if you're the one who sent it, you know who you are, thank you.

But still... chain letters are annoying.

So this is me when I'm not thinking about anything anyone cares about. :)

5:53am

That time has always been stuck in my head since i was... nine? I don't know. I don't even know why, really, it's just I had a nightmare when I was younger that had really changed my look in life. I had finally realized the value of life and how I really am afraid to die. I'm glad I experienced it through a nightmare rather than reality. In the dream it was irrational too, something silly as the city exploding at 5:53am... and then I remember how much fear I'd had before I woke up. When I looked at the clock after I'd woken up, it was 5:53am. Even though I know it wasn't a "strange coincidence" it really changed my perspective. I know it's childish, but after that friends and family became the most important part of my life.

5:53am. Houre of doom... (kidding!)

Friends are Worth a Thousand Words

As I'm waiting before meeting up with my friends today, I realized that as you grow up, your memories of people in the past start to dissolve depending on much they made of an impact on your life. I could name all sorts of people I remember, too, but over time you forget the little details you knew about the person as a child, like their favorite color, their obsession with chocolate cake... All you remember in the end is all of the great times you shared with each of your friends. Over time you forget that too. So I'm going to remember all of my friends, and do them the honor of showing up on my blog. (I'm lame, I know...) First there's Naomy, who loves zebras. Then there's Angela, who loves to draw. Joseph, who was extremely funny, Bianca, who I could tell secrets to, Kayla, we always laughed together, Andy, we always went trick-or-treating together, Jasmine, who was always cheery, Junevie, who was always fun to hang out with, Halee, who I talk to a lot, Taryn, who loved Hugh Jackman, Katie, who always has TicTacs, Andrew, who obsessed with cheese, Mark, who loves zombies, Kathryn, who liked ninjas, Chris, who squirted lemon in his eyes on purpose, Karye, who's a shmoopie, Nicole, who loves dogs, Britney, who was always fun to talk to, Taylor, who's a good friend, Sarah, who used to love the Jonas Brothers, and so many more people I know. Most of you I haven't named, and don't worry, I have NOT forgotten about you. It's just... I gotta meet with my friends now. Bye!